MESSAGE ON HOLDING ON

I was in my car this morning.

LONG TIME since I actually tune in to the radio.
Well, I love country songs and Malaysian radio doesn't really serve that kinda 'dish' except maybe Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood or maybe Shania Twain & Sheryl Crow...occasionally.

Anywayzzzz...
So, I was tuning in to Fly FM's Ben & Phat Fabes, one of my favourite morning shows.
And just when I needed something to boost my low spirit (you know, another day of stress), this song came on...

The first song of the day.
It's just like a message from God.
Just the right song, at the right time. Perfect...

Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On.

This is one of my favourite songs back then.
I remember the first time I heard this song, I was in the cinemas. The beautiful rhythms of "Keep Holding On" penetrates my ears after the movie Eragon. Then I just can't get this track off my playlist - for a while that is, before I got sick of it haha.

Today, Fly FM brought this song back into my life and at one of the times where I needed the support the most.

This song is about holding on, it's about hanging in there during times of adversities, it's about someone singing to you, telling you that they are there.

To me...I know my family is there...my friends are there and God is also there for me.
I am very blessed. Though this is like the hardest time for me. I have to face the consequences of my mistakes and it is not easy. Not everyone understand but I'm glad that there are people who are there.


You're not alone,
Together we stand,
I'll be by your side,
You know I'll take your hand,

When it gets cold, and it feels like the end,
There's no place to go, you know I won't give in.

No I won't give in.

Keep holding on,
'Cause you know we'll make it through, make it through,
Just stay strong,
'Cause you know I'm here for you, here for you
There's nothing you can say,
Nothing you can do,
There's no way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on,
'Cause you know we'll make it through, make it through


Sometimes, at a certain point in life, certain songs just make you tear up.
This morning, this song did.
Oh it's like I'm hearing someone support me.
I guess I'm DRAMATIZING things AGAIN but seriously, you have no idea how sad I was and how low I was for the past month. Finally, I can welcome November with only positive thoughts.


Hear me when I say, when I say I believe,
Nothing's gonna change,
Nothing's gonna change destiny...

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly...
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH~~

Okay..
Perfect for my day. Just the verse I need. Whatever that is meant to be will work out. I'm really hoping and praying desperately for things to work out for me. I mean, I don't want to be as miserable as I am now. Seriously, I am really miserable. I don't know why. I mean, I should be happy and grateful with the things I have but I'm not.

I'm only happy because I choose to like hang out with my friends and get myself geared up. But seriously, how long can I depend on my friends. They have their lives too. At one point in life, I have to stop BUGGING them. I don't know how I can live on, but have to lar...

Well, it's not like my day was great or anything after listening to this song.
I mean, it's ANOTHER day at work. I screw up as usual.
But then, at least it got my spirits higher for like almost 2%.

Plus, I had Farah, a great buddy chat with me and it really did cheer me up today.
So, well, I guess it is considered a great day, if you compare it to the various other days for the past 2 months.

Anyway, chaozzz....
Enjoy the song even though it is OLD~ haha well, kinda old
Brings back memories of Eragon though






Love,
TammyC

I'M JUST LOOKING FOR A PLACE IN THIS WORLD

A PLACE IN THIS WORLD - Taylor Swift

I love how I can always relate to Taylor's songs.
This is one in particular that I am so feeling right now.

I don't know what I want,
So don't ask me,
'Cause I'm still trying to figure it out,
Don't know what's down this road,
I'm just walking,
Trying to see it through the rain coming down...
Even though I'm not the only one who feels,
The way I do.

I am at this part of my life again where I have NO IDEA where I'm heading to or what I'm doing with my life. It's somewhat like a crossroad for me and right now, I'm pretty stuck.




I like this song.
It describes how lost I'm feeling. It describes the feeling of trying to search for something that I want and right now, I really don't know how to get there. I'm really lost.

I'm alone,
On my own,
And I'm starting off,
I'll be strong,
I'll be wrong,
Oh but life goes on...
Oh I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

The lonely road I'm on now BUT...I hope mine is a beautiful road like this one

I am really alone. I guess no matter how I say it, or to whom I say it, I still feel alone in this.
Recently, I made a stupid mistake. I huge mistake. It was figuratively fatal to my future. So ya...I'm trying to be strong. People are laughing behind my back I guess. I'm as humiliated as ever because of my own stupidity and my lack of judgment when letting out words of emotions...
I should have watch my mouth (or rather, the hands that typed those hurtful remarks).

But, I just want everyone to know, that, even though I mean what I said, I was just a foolish girl who can't control that moment of anger. I'm just a normal girl going through life and learning the curves around it. I'm just trying to find myself and what I love in this complicated world.

I really feel alone and lost, especially now that I've stepped into adulthood.
I missed being me, well, at least the me I were 2 to 3 years back. I had great times then. Now, my life is a maze that I'm in. And I hate the mistake that I've made; it makes this whole journey much worst for me.




Got the radio on
My old blue jeans,
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeves,
Feeling lucky today,
Got the sunshine,
Could you tell what more do I need,
And tomorrow's just a mystery...oh yeah,
But that's okay


I always try to think positive. Lately, it is just not working for me anything. I just don't have enough brain cells to churn positive thoughts. Seriously...whenever I start to think that things might start to take a turn, THE WORST possible happen.

Part of me thanks God for everything. I am still grateful for the things I have, the people around me and basically, everything that has happened to me so far were blessings in disguise. This time, I have yet to see the blessing but I'm hanging in there, trying to open my eyes to the wonders that lies ahead of me. I have always been a person who wears her heart on her sleeves, but maybe sometimes, in the real world, that is just not possible.

I will just try to laugh more like I did back then. And just enjoy whatever time I have with the people I love and enjoy hanging out with. I hope the sun will continue to shine on me. I hope and pray that God will continue to watch over me, though I might not be deserving.

I hope one day, I'll find the happiness that I've been searching for.
I hope that I can find a place where I can truly belong and where I'm truly happy - like when I was in TARC & in Liverpool. =D
For now, I'm glad that I have my music & my movies - my best companions~



I feel exactly like how Taylor says she feels about getting to her dream career as an artiste. Well, I don't want to sing like her but I definitely want to write like her.

I hope that one day, I'll achieve my dreams, just like she did.


Love,
TammyC
To great future & beyond~

BOYS LIKE GIRLS GAVE ME & MY EARS ANOTHER GREAT ESCAPE

Okay
I'm sure most of you know Boys Like Girls after their famous hit "The Great Escape".
I remember screaming to that song inside my car....

"Throw it away, forget yesterday, We'll MAKE THE GREAT ESCAPE! We won't hear a word they say, They don't know us anyway"

I mean, seriously, it is REALLY FUN to blast the car stereo & do that. Try it! What better place to sing it than your car, simulating your own great escape, especially after a long tiring or stressful day.

I remember once I was so upset with something & this song just made my day.

So, my sister told me to listen to this new one by Boys Like Girls featuring my favourite Taylor Swift. The title of the song "Two Is Better Than One".

Okay lar, the first time I heard it I wasn't feeling the 'syokness' (excitedness) in me; maybe partly because it is recommended by my 'arch-enemy' a.k.a. my sister. So as usual, the egoistic part of me just think that it is one normal song.

It doesn't help me like the song when my sis keep singing it 24-7 a day...partly out of tune.
But today, I saw someone's Facebook status, "Two is better than One" and I thought, I actually felt like listening to it.

SO straight from the office, I downloaded it....

And now, it's gonna be stuck in my playlist for a while =)

I remember what you wore the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

Some way, somehow, I can't seem to remember what my crushes wore the first time I saw them. But I guess I know the feeling of thinking....hmm...what's this feeling? Could he be it? LOL...usually, he is not haha...

The boys... (who like girls or are somewhat like girls :P)

So maybe it's true,
that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time,
to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one


I guess there will be a time where this special someone arrive in your life and you feel that suddenly, you just fall so head over heels and then other things in your life doesn't seem to make any sense anymore. You give up everything just for him - the things that you want, maybe sometimes, the direction that you think you want to head...
It makes you wonder, who are you and why is this feeling messing me up?

Personally, I've never fallen that crazily in love before. I mean, I've crushed a few times & gone half crazy ...hmm...somehow, I'm pretty set in what I feel I want. Never really felt like I'm coming undone when it comes to relationships and love. Maybe because I haven't really meet that one person yet.

I remember giving up a chance to practically see my crush everyday just because I chose my internship in production rather than another non-production job, in which I'll be situated nearer to him. He will send me to work and back...Well, I gave that up. I didn't regret it. I think again, I'm selfish huh...I always put myself first. So, I guess at this point in life, my career, my dreams are still pretty intact. As for relationships, I really hope that I can meet someone that I'd want to give up everything for (though chances are slim) and a person who is worth me selflessly loving. Okay back to reality...

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes,
the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing


Taylor starts to sing this verse, describing her feelings.
Problems breathing it seems. Lol...
Well of course, you just can't talk properly when you are face-to-face with someone who takes your breathe away. Been there. I like this verse.

The girl

So is Two better than One?
You decide!

The album Are you love drunk? If you are, you'd really like this one

The acoustic version:



The one with Taylor:

















Love,
TammyC
Enjoy!
My great Escape & Of course, 2 is better than one

THE BATTLE BETWEEN CAILLAT & SWIFT

There's no battle really. Both of them are fabulous. Both of them are my favourites.
But I feel that I need to write about both albums.



Most of the time, Taylor and Colbie both writes about love.
However, Taylor's songs carry teenage love-crush themes while Colbie's love songs are more matured.

The hands of love

Personally, I feel that Taylor's lyrics are exceptionally written. All of Taylor's songs are so meaningful and her feelings are aptly orchestrated in the words she use. Maybe because I feel I can relate to more of Taylor's songs. Colbie is good in lyrics too. Colbie's way of writing is deeper, which is cool. For Colbie, I don't feel awed by her lyrical expressions maybe because I cannot relate to her songs yet. Her songs is always about succumbing to love in some ways, like begging a dude to come back to her that sort of thing...it makes you feel vulnerable.

But what captures me about Colbie's new album is the melody of her songs. Most of her songs are so beautiful to the ears. Not to say that Taylor's songs aren't great to the ears though but I think melody wise, I'd have to give it to Colbie.

So basically, Colbie's album is like a HOT HOT guy, who looks amazing physically...well, kind of have a good heart too...

Taylor's album is like a average-looking kinda guy but with GREAT GREAT personality. Someone who you can sing along with and feel.
A lot of guys don't dig Taylor's song, well we all know why. They are never about the lyrics and ALL ABOUT THE MELODY. Oops! Am I generalizing here?

Anyway, for now, I'm in love with Colbie's album but I never get bored of all Taylor's song. I can sing along to Taylor's song anytime, anywhere.

COLBIE CAILLAT'S 'BREAKTHROUGH':

1. I Won't
I think this track serves as an excellent opening to the album.
One of my favourites in the album.

Gist of the song: "I won't give up on my love for you"

2. Begin Again
Absolutely my favourite song on the album (well at least for now). It's fast and fun to sing with.

Gist of the song: "Arguments is not the end of a relationship. Sometimes we hurt in other when we are angry, but maybe we don't mean the things we say. So, let's cool down and start over ;P"

3. You Got Me
Gist of the song: "Just how one dude captured her heart"

4. Falling for You
Colbie's first single from the album Breakthrough. This one is good, if not, we won't be driven to listen to the rest of the album.

Gist of the song: "I'm falling in love with someone and I'm not sure if my feelings for him is true. Do I know him well enough? And I'm wondering if I should tell him to because I don't know if he feels the same way."

5. Rainbow
Gist of the song: "A never ending search for love, no matter how far"

6. Droplets
This is not exactly a new song. Previously, Colbie has performed this track a couple of times with her close friend, Jason Reeves. Not surprising to have this one on the album.

Gist of the song: "Not sure about this one, but I think it's about walking away from a deeply imprinted love."

7. I Never Told You
Another one of my favourites in the album. Love the melody.

Gist of the song: "I never told you how much I love you and how I feel about being with you until I lose you"

8. Fearless
This one I love love love! The monotonous start of the song is great. I'd love to just sit alone, in darkness, on top of the world, looking above the city lights to this track. It makes you feel out of the world.

Gist of the song: "I'm not afraid of you leaving me. Go ahead"

9. Running Around
This is a fun song. Not bad.

Gist of the song: "I ran away from you but now I found that there's no one compared to you"

10. Break through
Gist of the song: "I want to breakthrough to you but the only way that's going to happen is that you will have to let me in"

11. It Stops Today
This is one song with lyrics I can appreciate personally, so I really like it.

Gist of the song: "I'll stop running away from my own problems. I'm taking the challenge to step out of my comfort zone, do something that I am afraid of doing before."

12. Breaking at the Cracks
Gist of the song: "Another song about heart-breaks"

13. What I Wanted to Say
Gist of the song: "Sometimes we are afraid to say the things we want to, for example "I love You" or "Please don't go". So we just hope that the other person know what we wanted to say because it is so hard for us to say the things we really want to say."

14. Out of My Mind
Gist of the song: "I make a wrong decision leaving a dude who loves me a lot and now I realized how much I love him too"

15. Don't Hold Me Down
Gist of the song: "Just don't hold me back from doing the things I wanna do and achieve."

16. Never Let You Go
Gist of the song: "I love you so much that no matter what happens, I will hang on to you, supporting you ;P"

TAYLOR SWIFT'S 'FEARLESS'

1. Fearless
Not exactly one of my favourite song by Taylor but well...

Gist of the song: "It's about the date Taylor never had"

2. Fifteen
Depending on how well you know me, if you know me very well, you'll know that this is one of MY MOST FAVOURITE SONG by Taylor. This is the song that will make me cry almost everytime I hear it. Apparently Taylor also cried when recording this one. I think it is a song that most girls can relate to - highschool and boys and life in general.

Gist of the song: "The challenges in a girls life, especially in highschool."

3. Love Story
Taylor's first single in the album. I was once crazy over it. It is like the song say, a fairy tale love story that all girls dream about, well at least I dream about ;P

Gist of the song: "A Romeo & Juliet love story with a happy ending"

4. Hey Stephen
This is another song I enjoy singing a lot. Taylor dedicates this song to, I believe one of her idol from the band Love and Theft, Stephen Barker Liles. She thinks he's cute and she penned a song for him. Well that's cool! lol

Gist of the song: "Taylor proclaiming her 'love' to Stephen. I believe everyone has their own Stephen who they want to dedicate this song to. For me, hmmm...all the hot dudes I've met before haha"

Stephen in green

5. White Horse
Taylor wrote this one for Joe Jonas who broke her heart. She cried while singing this during the music awards. I mean, no matter how dramatic you call her, I think she's just a vulnerable and insecured teen.

Gist of the song: "I'm moving on, you cheater! I'll find someone right for me someday and it's not you"

6. You Belong With Me
Another track I love from the album. The video is cool too, I mean, it won the Best Female Video award before Kanye did the stupid stunt to embarrass Taylor. But seriously, I understand why her video won. I mean, I thought it was a great video...Don't you?

Gist of the song: "Why can't you see that I am the one for you? Why do you even date a B****?"

7. Tell Me Why
Gist of the song: "Just mad with a guy who hurt her bad"

8. You're Not Sorry
This is one song I love but I don't have in my song list. Don't know why. Will get it in soon.

Gist of the song: "She is not believing the guy anymore. Though he said he is sorry, she know better. She is leaving because she doesn't want to hurt anymore"

9. The Way I Loved You
Gist of the song: "It's about a relationship and I think it's also about a fight with your boyfriend because you love each other too much?"

10. Forever & Always
Dedicated to Joe Jonas. No comment but I never really liked Joe even before he start dating Taylor. So, whatever.

Gist of the song: "You just never kept your promise about forever and always"

11. The Best Day
Another beautifully written song by Taylor. Love the lyrics to this one.

Gist of the song: "It's about how great your father is"

12. Change
I didn't know this until a few days back. This song is actually for the US sports team. So it's like an inspiration song to motivate them to never give up and you know, lift the spirits of sportsmanship.

Gist of the song: "Never give up. We'll win someday if we keep on fighting because things are constantly changing. On some days we might lose, but on others, we could be champions"

13. Crazier
Another absolute favourite that I'm crazy over. Ask my flatmates in UK and you'll know. This song has been repeating for hours in my room non-stop.

Gist of the song: "Just crazy in love over someone"


As you are probably now aware of, BOTH of them are fabulous. It's hard to choose. And the best is always to combine both of them...


So now, let me bring you "BREATHE" by Taylor Swift featuring Colbie Caillat.

I mean how can this piece suck? The first time the melody sweeps through my ear loops, I fell in love with it. It is about a relationship that has to end, because it has to. Well, I am not feeling the lyrics but I sure love the song. Enjoy.



Love,
TammyC

BUTTERFLY FLYING AWAY

BUTTERFLY FLY AWAY by Miley Cyrus

Though I love country music, I am not a Miley Cyrus fan. I've mentioned before I don't get the Hannah Montana hype but let's not get into that. But I have to admit, there are a few songs by Miley that I actually like. One of them is the latest "Butterfly Fly Away" from the movie Hannah Montana.

I really love the song's melody and the fact that the song is about her dad.
Country girls are always daddy's girl. I guess I am in some ways a daddy's and mummy's girl. I can be with both of them and chat about stuff.

Miley & Billy Ray Cyrus

My dad is a bit reserved and conservative but once we get with the flow, he can really talk a lot. He is one of the wisest man ever and though he preach a lot, sometimes, I don't really mind listening to the things he say over and over. Of course there are times I wished that he would save it. Haha but my dad is a great man.
You tucked me in, Turned out the lights, Keep me safe and sound at night, Little girls depend on things like that

I remember when I was small, after watching any scary movies, me and my sis would have problems sleeping at night. So what we would do is run next door to my dad's room and sleep next time him first...See, we would always feel safer with our dad next to us...Don't know why.

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone,
Make a living, make a home,
Must have been as hard as it could be

Well my mum does all my brushing and combing of hair, but my dad and grandpa does drive me everywhere and ALL OF THEM WERE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I LOOKED BACK. So, they really are the people I love a lot a lot because their sacrifice (not just driving me everywhere) is priceless. I guess everything that they've done for me are hard and difficult and I always worry if I could have done the same for my own offsprings. Honestly, I still am doubting it. So, my parents and grandparents are really great!

And when I couldn't sleep at night,
Scared things wouldn't turn out right,
You'd hold my hand and sing to me....

Well my parents don't really sing to me at night but I'll always remember the times where we sing in the car to songs like "Tiny Bubbles", "Que Sera Sera" and "Who stole the cookie from the cookie pot?". Our Sundays used to be family day out and sometimes we sing songs in cars. It was really fun.

Caterpillar in the tree,
How you wonder who you'll be,
Can't go far but you can always dream,
Wish you may and wish you might,
Don't you worry hold on tight,
I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly Fly Away
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
Flap your wing now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
We been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do
Butterfly, Butterfly, Butterfly,
Butterfly Fly Away (Butterfly Fly Away)

The chorus sings about how a dad wish that his daughter or son would go far in life...
I mean everyone of us has to learn how to be independent one day and fly away from the safe cocoon in the form of our parents. And of course parents would want us to go as far as we can and make all our dreams come true.


I think it is really a beautiful track that anyone would enjoy.

My dad & my mum

Love,
TammyC

LOVE ME FOR ALL THAT I AM

If you are my age, you'd probably remember a group call A*Teens.
Okay call me lame but I was once a huge fan okay. I mean, they are okay. I still enjoy some of their music no matter what some might say.

So, I was going through my old playlist and suddenly I remember this song.

"For All That I Am" by A*Teens

(From left) Amit, Marie, Sara & Dhani makes A*Teens

Suddenly, I feel that I can relate to this song even though I'm not in a relationship.
I guess this song applies to my feelings towards my friends and family members sometimes.

I'm sorry, made you feel sorry

Last night, I came home too late
And you were there waiting
I know, it's easy to call
I guess I wasn't thinking of you
It's not that I don't care
You should know me better by now...

CHORUS
I am sorry if I made you lonely and sad
I am sorry if I made you feel bad
What I'm trying to say
I'm not always that way
So love me for all that I am

I know (I know)
I often forget
To say that I love You (that I love you)
And Yes (And Yes)
I truly regret
The times that I might have hurt you that way
It's not that I don't care
You should know me better by now

You know sometimes I am so forgetful and so engaged with stuff that I neglect some friends or some of my family members. I neglect the ones I really love. I guess deep in my heart I truly care for them, it's just that sometimes, I might get a bit carried away. Then when I think back of how I've neglected them, I feel so so bad but I never really would go to them and tell them how much I actually cared. So, I guess this song aptly describe my feelings...I just hope that people accept me for who I am, even though I'm such a screw up sometimes.

True, I may defend the things I do
Though I know deep down I'm am wrong
But when the heat comes done it's you
That keeps me going on

This most aptly describes me personally. Because of my irritable egoistic nature, I always am defensive. I know! I hate that too but I can't seem to control myself for wanting to be RIGHT ALL THE TIME! And after saying the things I say, sometimes I truly regret it. I wish that I wasn't that defensive at the moment because I know in some ways, it make me look like such a b**** and I hurt others at times without knowing it. And, it's so sad that I hurt the ones I actually love. When I love someone, sometimes I guess I become even more critical about them and that kind of pushes them away from me. I guess like the lyrics go, at the end of the day, it is actually them that makes my day and make me who I am. They are the ones I care about but they are also the ones I might have hurt the most.

So at the end of the day, I really hope that people love me for who I am as a person, even with all my weaknesses (believe me, LOADS OF THEM) because I love them all...

Now don't be judgmental but A*Teens songs are pretty good. This is only one song that brings back memories. There are a few other great tracks that I'd share maybe some other time.

CHECK THIS SONG OUT:

Remember, I love all of you
Please love me too

Love,
TammyC

WHEN YOU THINK 'TIM MCGRAW' I HOPE YOU THINK OF ME

Tim McGraw by Taylor Swift

This is probably one of my first favourites from the lists of all my favourite Taylor Swift's songs. First, let's clear a misunderstanding. This song is not about Tim McGraw. Second, it is not sung by Tim McGraw. And for those who are scratching their heads, clueless about who Tim McGraw is, well, he is a famous country music singer. Why is this song so special? Well, part of it describes a dream date.

When you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my head on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me

Well of course instead of the lake, I'd really prefer dancing by the beach with that special someone to my favourite songs. And coincidentally, the song goes...when you think "Tim McGraw", as in this song, I hope you'll think of me because this is really my favourite song.

You said the way my blue eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said: "That's a lie"
Just a boy in a Chevy truck,
That had a tendency of gettin' stuck,
On backroads at night
An' I was right there beside him all summer long
An' then the time we woke up to find that summer'd gone

Just a boy in a Chevy truck - just a simple guy who screws up sometimes - I guess that is just a country guy that I like. I've always have a thing for country boys. I mean, I like their accent, I like their style and they are usually just simple, sweet guy-next-doors. I mean, I never liked cocky hunks...though they look good most the times. I prefer naughty boys with a nice heart. But then, we can never control who we fall for ya...

Just a country boy

In some ways I know how it feels to be close to someone you like for a few months and then have to leave. I guess I've also wrote stuff to my crush that HE'LL NEVER READ. But then I've never had the chance to be in a relationship with some special guy like Taylor, so this song really can't be applied to me. But if one day I have a chance to spend time with the guy I love, I'd definitely spend it by the beach, watching the stars and talk just about everything we love in the midst of the sounds of the shores and some great music...

Beach at night

Don't you think it is pathetic that I'm such a dreamer and is that boring? Can't help it...

You said the way my blue eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said: "That's a lie"
Just a boy in a Chevy truck,
That had a tendency of gettin' stuck,
On backroads at night
An' I was right there beside him all summer long
An' then the time we woke up to find that summer'd gone

But when you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my head on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me

September saw a month of tears,
An' thankin' God that you weren't here,
To see me like that
But in a box beneath my bed,
Is a letter that you never read,
From three summers back
It's hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet,
An' lookin' back on all of that, it's nice to believe:

When you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my head on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me

And I'm back for the first time since then:
I'm standin' on your street,
An' there's a letter left on your doorstep,
An' the first thing that you'll read:

Is: "When you think: Tim McGraw,
"I hope you think my favorite song"
Some day you'll turn your radio on,
I hope it takes you back to that place
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: "That little black dress"
Think of my head on your chest,
An' my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me
Oh, think of me,
Mmmm

You said the way my blue eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said: "That's a lie"

Check it out - no regrets...




Love,
TammyC














I'm gonna look at the STARS~

FEELING FIFTEEN

Fifteen by Taylor Swift

You take a deep breath and walk through the doors it's the morning of your very first day

Why do I love this song?
I love it because it is about how a typical girl will feel at one point in their life.
For Taylor, it was when she is 15; a time when she feels that love could be everything, a time when she is seeking for directions, a time when she is moving into a new phase in life...all which I can relate to at certain point in life.

Honestly, I'm always slower in maturing. Some teens at 12 are already talking about love relationships and crushes. Serious and shocking to me personally because when I was 12, all I think about is Spice Girls. Boys? Really? Nah...I mean, all the boys in my year were...erm...I guess at that time, we just don't think of them as boyfriend material, maybe because we don't even know what a boyfriend is for. Maybe you don't believe it but me and my friends were actually THAT NAIVE. That's usually what small town girls like us are I guess. At least I am.

Even when I was 15, I never really thought about boys. I guess I am always nerdy in highschool...real nerdy (even though I don't wear specs or act like those typical nerdy girls). Because I didn't get straight As for my UPSR, my Form 1 to 3 years were dedicated to making sure that I do well in PMR. There were some of my classmates who talk about boys and all but I never really was in that gang. I was in the TV-Movie-couch potato gang who talk about TV shows, movies and celebrities. Miss those times....

So if Taylor experience all those stuff at 15, I guess I started experience what she experience at the age ranging from 17 to 19.

You take a deep breath and walk through the doors it's the morning of your very first day
You say Hi to your friends you ain't seen in awhile
Try to stay out of everybody's way
It's freshman year and you're gonna be here for the 4 years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys,
Will wink at you and say "You know I haven't seen you around before"...

At 17, I stepped into college, and my very first day in college was a whole new experience for me and it was the threshold of a whole new phase in my life. Of course my first semester in college wasn't the greatest but I've grown to fall in love with my college and my college buddies over the years. Unlike Taylor, I didn't expect ANY SENIOR BOYS to wink at me. I mean, I can't deny that at 17, a girl will tend to notice boys more, but then at 17, I still wasn't that desperate for guy's attention yet. I still believe I have plenty of time to slowly choose my PERFECT GUY (as usual, the dreamer mentality. Where got one!) Plus, the moment I stepped into my class, no offense, but I was pretty disappointed. I think the only one which caught my attention most was Alric (everyone would know why). Alric is definitely the best-looking and confident guy in class. But don't think I have a major crush on him...haha..nah, I seriously don't. Alric is a great friend, even till now and I believe a lot of people know I admire his qualities.

My next phase in life was the transaction to Advanced Diploma. If previously there were 5 broadcast classes, Advanced Diploma had combined all the broadcast students into one class. To me, this is one of the best things that happened in my life because this is how I began closer to some of my closest friends like YY and Lydia. And diverting my attention on guys, this time, my attention was drawn to a senior, not because of his good looks or whatever great qualities...but because my close friend YY kept diverting my attention to his don't-care attitude. It is true. He always does crazy crazy stuff...he's not goofy, but rather, he just seemed to like to do things matter-a-factly. Like once, we had to do a mock meeting as presentation and this is an important presentation as it will contribute to our coursework marks. I mean, of course everyone is doing things at their best, but this dude was like tilting his chair and sucking his sweet during presentation. He was like really....well, quite entertaining to a certain extend.
So who is this dude? Another good friend of mine, YC. You ponder back on your first impression of these people and you really can't believe it is them, because at that time, you barely know them. I think I never thought of YC as the person I know him now back then.

The ABC gang - Advanced Diploma in Broadcast gang
My life has been transformed since I met all of them.
They are a fun bunch who will definitely cheer you up when you are down.
Had a blast throughout my 2 years of study with them.

Then came UK. I think UK was another transition in my life where I became close to 5 beautiful girls whom I never really talk to in class. I know they were brilliant and extremely kind, but I never really communicated with them for there wasn't really any need to. UK brought them closer to me and I am so glad to have them as my flatmates who had faced and supported me through the adversities of assignments in Liverpool. JT and Wei Sin also became extremely close buddies of mine in Liverpool. I guess they were also my back-bone when I was extremely down, especially due to assignment stress. OH and UK was really the time when I seriously hoped that a guy would wink at me and say "I haven't seen you around before" haha...I mean, they are all so good-looking. I can't help it okay~ I seriously can't control my eyes. But I guess everyone know I have the biggest puppy crush on my lecturer Andrew. Erm but then, practically every girl in the course has a thing for him.

The 5 hotties that I became really attached to in UK.
They were my flatmates, who took care of me and made sure that I have enough good food to eat and also made sure that I did all my assignments.
Love them!

You sit in class next to redhead named Abigail and soon enough your best friends,
Laughing at the other girls,
Who think their so cool,
Gotta get out of here as soon as we can

This I got to relate back to the days when I was 14...I met my best friend in Form 2, when I, well
didn't exactly sit next to her, but rather, in front of her. Jee Yin was the best thing that happened to me in MGS. She was the one who I can talk to then about most ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.

Jee Yin, Ju Imm & Me. Both of them are girls that I hang out with throughout my high school days. Love their company. Will be besties forever though we took different paths in life.

I enjoyed MGS days because of her. And really, we talked about those other girls (who we don't get and their arrogant, 'cool' antics) and really hoping to get out of there as soon as we can. I never liked high school. I don't know. I guess maybe I don't feel the bond with my school and the other students there. With college it was different. My whole bunch of college friends, especially those in Advanced Diploma, are a huge part of me now. Some of them in fact are very important to me. I guess in some ways, I think I enjoy TARC so much because of these friends of mine.


And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car and you're feeling like flying
And your mama's waiting up
And you're thinking he's the one...
And you dance around the room, when the night ends..

Never felt this way before, because I've never been on a date before, so I don't know. But I'm really hoping that one day I could feel this way about someone and then I could dance around my room just thinking about my first date.

'Cause when you're fifteen,
Somebody tells you they love you,
You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen and your first kiss makes your world spin round
In your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy on your football team

I guess I was never the kinda girl who want to be completely dependent on a guy. I guess even though as I grow up, part of me wants to be crazily in love, I still have a principle that I cannot depend on the guy 100% (could be one reason why people think I like dominating everything). I guess in some ways I lack faith in relationships...I don't know why. That's why I always believe that as a girl, my goal would be to achieve success in my career but not to date as many hot guys as I can. But then again, maybe the fact that I was never popular among guys is the reason I think that way. =D But at this point, I'm not sure if I'm getting there...or if I'm getting anywhere since I'm currently at a new crossroad in life - entering the working world. But that's another story I guess.

But then I think for a girl, they'll usually believe whatever their first love say, whether or not they are 15 or older. I guess I always wanted to be this strong, independent girl, but even so, I can't be 100% sure that when I fall head over heels with a guy, I won't be stupid and naive to believe everything he say. I know there are times when one will be blinded by love. Personally, I've never been there before, but I have seen a few people who have been. You might call them stupid, but then I guess when the cupid is working its magic on you, you can't control it, can you?

And Abigail gave everything she has to a boy who changed his mind
We both cried...

This, I don't know why is my favourite verse in the song.
When I hear this part, it touches my heart and I feel kinda sad. I guess it reminds me of all the girls who gave their hearts out, loving a guy, only to be let down. How devastating...exactly what I fear most - hurt. Sigh...

Fifteen is one of my favourite tracks in Taylor's new album so do check it out!


Miley and Taylor sang this song in one award song, and I thought Miley didn't carry out the emotions that this song has but Taylor really did. My favourite part was when Taylor sang my favourite verse - she delivered the sadness she felt for her friend. Well I guess to be fair to Miley, she didn't write the song. But still, at fifteen, Miley should try to relate...I don't know. Not a Miley fan.

Check out their performance in this link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-1tsAwkti4&feature=related

All these phases in life made me treasure my friends more and of course helped me gain experience as a youth who is growing up and maturing and exploring the world. Basically, I think that is the essence of the song. It doesn't mean that you have to be 15 to be feeling what Taylor feel, but I think many of us have to a certain extend gone through these emotions.



That's all for this time

With Lotsa Lurve,
TammyC

ARE WE MOVING ON YET?

Stereotypes and branding people.
I think that is basically what we normally do. Once you make a mistake, people might forgive you. But sometimes, you are branded forever.

Have you ever been branded or stereotyped for something before? I am always branded as the immature, clumsy, screw up in the family. Everytime something broke or got lost, usually it's because of me - well, at least it is claimed to be me. Also, I'm also seen as the one who is incapable of serious tasks. I mean, I know I'm not perfect but sometimes, don't you hate the fact that people judge you even before you do something.

Honestly, I don't really know how I want people to see me. At home, I'm not exactly trusted with things, most of the times, I'm belittled and looked down upon. For example, my sis and my bro always see me as the immature one, who can't seem to be independent. I hate to be perceive that way, even though in some ways, I admit I might not be as organized and responsible as them. I know some of my friends believe in me, they think that I'm very organized and capable of doing things. I'm really grateful for that, but then again, like I said, I'm really NOT PERFECT. I'm really disorganized and I hate the fact that sometimes, my friends think that I am able to do everything they expect of me and when I don't deliver, I let them down. I think a few days back, I had this argument with a friend because he branded me as disorganized. I mean, I never said that I'm this organized person who stick to schedules and have great time management. I'm always the more spontaneous, go-with-the-flow kinda girl. So that day, I was seriously pissed off so bad with him I shocked most of my friends because they know I don't get so angry that easily. The smile on my face makes me the happy-go-lucky girl who seems to not get angry at any friends.

It was our last day in Liverpool and I was already very moody and sad. My flatmates had decided that we should be eating out, since it was really our last day in Liverpool and they really don't want to be eating Maggi Mee AGAIN. So, great, at the very last moment, we decided to eat out. This last minute notice didn't seem to please that friend of mine. To cut a long story short, I was happily approaching him when suddenly he just blurted at me, telling me what a great planner I am to 'ask' for a dine out at such a last minute. Honestly, I wasn't the one who planned dinner that day but since it was such a disorganized outing, it somehow had to be me who planned it. See the stereotype? I guess it wasn't the first time I get this...maybe the first time from that friend but somehow or rather, I guess I'm use to it. But I was still really angry because he somehow ruined a good memory of my last day in Liverpool. Of course, I feel better because deep down, I know really, it wasn't my fault =D (ego me). Plus, if it's too last minute for him, he can always skip the dinner outing with us, right? Of course, being a Leo, I have an enormous ego...and I refuse to talk to him even after he apologize, I still decide to 'punish' him for another few minutes.

Anyway, why am I talking about all this in my music blog?
Well, because Rascal Flatt's song "I'm Movin' On" is about stereotypes in some ways.
Imagine being a convict, and then not given a chance to redeem yourself. I guess like I say, once you commit a crime, or do something wrong, you are forever seen as the one who would commit the same mistake. That's why some people don't give any chance to these past offenders, sad, but we're humans...we're psychologically that way. Sad but true.

Rascal Flatts, my favourite country music band, that's for sure.

The song is about moving on to a new place, starting afresh because in the past, you've been stereotyped and there is no chance of redemption, even though you regret what you've done previously. People don't give you a chance sometimes, and the best way is to proceed and move on.

I'm Moving On - Rascal Flatts
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1bxlDAjGCo

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on


So I guess if compared to some people, I'm really not in such a bad situation myself. I have family and friends who still love and care for me despite my weaknesses and despite the fact that they somehow categorize me as a screw up.

At one point in life, we really need to move on. There is a long road ahead of us and maybe a better future awaits.

The song above has really nice lyrics and beautiful relaxing music. I guess the song highlights the fact that life is always incomprehensible and perplexing and I guess sometimes, especially during bad times, the best way to get over things is by moving on and not looking back. Easy to say...hard to do I know.



Love,
TammyC

I'M CRAZY OVER CRAZIER

I'm going to share with you guys a song that had been repeating on my phone song's list for like about 1 week now. I just can't stop listening to this one, it's beautiful!~

Being a major Taylor Swift fan, I love all Taylor Swift's songs. Here is one of them that got me really head over heels over. I keep repeating and repeating it. I listen to it through, yes, THROUGH bedtime, when I'm bathing and whenever I can.

With Taylor Swift, I always find that I can in some ways relate to. That's why I love Taylor's songs. She writes stories in songs. If only I could write like her huh?

'Crazier' is not exactly a song in which I can like related to in particular I guess since it's about falling about this magnificent perfect guy and then ending up being with him. Plus, it is a guy who changed her for the better.

Nice cover! Really nice



Taylor singing crazier in the video

Personally, I wished I could feel this way for someone that way someday. ;P
I think right now, the only person whom I can think off when I listen to this song is one of my super handsome and intelligent lecturer. Well, EVERYONE knows I have a crush on him. Though it was like a play kinda thing. But I do feel this song does apply part of how I
feel for him, well, except the part where we're actually in love hehe.

Well my lecturer, being super duper good-looking of course gets NOT ONLY ME, but more than half the girls in the course swooning over him. Well, I mean, of course we are all going 'crazier' right?

"I watch from a distance as you,
Make life your own...
Every sky was your own kinda blue,
And I wanted to know,
How that would feel,
And you made it so real..."

I do watch him from a distance because he doesn't know me. And yeah, I love the phrase 'every sky was your own kinda blue'. He has blue eyes and I think it reflects his world - and so the world is his kinda blue. And I think in many ways, he did change us; He changed me I think, but in ways I couldn't describe though. I feel inspired by him in certain ways, to do certain things I guess.

Taylor Swift mentioned "lost in your eyes" - My God, if you see his eyes, you'll really be lost. I think whenever he looks at you and ask you a question, sometimes you really get lost in his eyes and completely not know what to answer. (Maybe because you aren't really listening to the question in the first place)

My lecturer, Andrew & Me in blue ;)
He just reminds me of the colour blue, maybe because of his eyes.

Crazier - Taylor Swift

I'd never gone with the wind,
Just let it flow...
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you opened the door,
there's so much more...
I've never seen it before,
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings,
Til you came along and you changed everything

Chorus:
You lift me feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
Am lost in your eyes,
You make me crazier, crazier


I watch from a distance as you,
Make life your own...
Every sky was your own kinda blue,
And I wanted to know,
How that would feel,
And you made it so real...

You showed me something that I couldn't see,
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

REPEAT CHORUS

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore...

This song is a Hannah Montana soundtrack. I'm no Hannah Montana or Miley Cyrus fan but this song is really nice..especially the melody.

Miley Cyrus & Hannah Montana. Still don't get what the hype is all about but still love 'Crazier'

I love the video. Simple and Taylor Swift looks so beautiful in it. I love the romantic couple dancing. I love the cowboy in it. I just love the feel of the clip.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xpY49Q2mjw

Watch it ;P


With Lotsa Lurve,
TammyC