I TRAVELED BECAUSE OF LOVE

A song worth sharing.

I seldom share Malay songs, I guess there are really none worth sharing so far.

But this one is one of my favourite.

I forgot about it, can you believe it?

The other day, I was honoured to be invited to an Australian Annual Gala dinner, and had the pleasure of being serenaded by Ning Baizura as she was the guest performer.

When she introduces that she is going to sing this song, I was ecstatic! Can't believe that I actually have the privilege of being in the presence of such an iconic singer, and singing one of my favourite songs by her.

The great thing is, this lady can really sing. She was fantastic live, it's unbelievable!!

I think I'm most proudest when the Australians actually complimented her. 

I forgot how touching this video is.

It is about chasing your dreams. 

It is about loving your dreams.

It is about loving your family members.

Kerana cinta 

(Because of love)

Aku kembara

(I traveled)

Bagai camar

(Like a gull)

Melintas laut

(Flying across the sea)

Mencari pohon 

(Looking for a tree)

Untuk berteduh

(For a quite shade)

Kerana cinta

Aku kembara

Mengikut lagu

(Following a song)

Bisikan hati

(A heart's whisper)

Mendamba kasih paling setia

(Yearning for the most honest love)

Sepasang sayap tak terlihat

(An unseen pair of wings)

Umpama mimpi yang tersimpan

(Is like a hidden dream)

Jadi rintik-rintik hujan

(They become tiny droplets of rain)

Menciptakan 

(creating)

Awan yang terpilu

(The saddest clouds)

Puisi ini

(This poem) 

Tercipta lantas

(was then create because)

Tak kesampaian Hayat meronakan

(I couldn't express)

Gelora rindu Ku kepadamu

((how much I missed you)

Chorus...

Ingin sekali Aku ungkapi

(I really wanted to express...)

Isyarat jiwa

(what is in my soul)

Dengan sempurna

(perfectly)

Biarkan kau mengerti

(So that you could understand)

Biarkan kau sedari

(So that you would know)

Keadaanku yang memujamu

(How much I adore you)

The music video is about Ning following her dreams of becoming a singer, despite her father's objections.

She did not get her father's blessings to pursue her music career, but she went on as well, although deep in her heart, she has always been waiting for the day her father forgives her.

It's hard to have to choose between two loves, but I guess sometimes, choices have to be done.

Sometimes, I guess our loved ones doesn't get our passion, and what we love to do...

Sometimes, they do not show us they care for us...but they do.

Perhaps sometimes it's just hard to express our love for each other, but deep down, our love for our family lasts forever...

This touching video clip was directed by Virginia Kennedy. 

With Lotsa Love

TammyC

LOOKING FOR THAT PILLAR

Life is tougher and tougher.

I'm facing challenges that I am struggling to overcome.

I'm trying hard to be positive and learn from the hardship that is overwhelming to me.

Trying to cope with my problem of not being to sleep normally, eat healthily and keep myself living a happier lifestyle. 

Is life supposed to be this way?

Perhaps yes...Perhaps a life full of obstacles is a good one; perhaps if you feel so tense that it's almost unbearable, it is a good thing...

But I'm very tired ...not physically...

I think more like mentally and emotionally...I am tired of pushing myself to go through this.

I guess I'm weak.

And at times like these...

I need a song to push me through, and I found the perfect song on Glee this week.

As I lay me down

Heaven hear me now

I'm lost without a cause

After giving it my all

Winter storms have come

And darkened my sun

After all that I've been through

Who can I turn to?

I look to you

I look to you

After all my strength is gone

In you I can be strong

I look to you

I look to you

And when melodies are gone

In you I hear a song

I look to you

About to lose my breath

There's no more fighting left

Sinking to rise no more

Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken

Left to my regret

And I don't know if I'm going to make it

Nothing to do but lift my head

My levee's have broken

My doors have come crumbling down on me

The rain is falling, defeat is calling

I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle

I need you, shine on me

The song describes exactly how I'm feeling 

And I'm desperately needing someone to tell me that things will be okay again; that I will go through this, because I am seriously losing grip.

I need someone to shine a light and tell me and lead me and let me know that I'm traveling down the direction I want to go...

Right now, I can only pray and do my best.

It will be over soon.

I'll move on.

With Lotsa Love

Tammy

ONLY EXCEPTION

If you a person who is skeptical in love, you'd appreciate this song. You wish that there's that one person who is the only exception, the one who can bring you that happiness that you've wished for and longed for.

I love this song the moment I heard it.

It's the only famous Paramore song that I enjoy and actually can say I love.

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart as I watched

As he try to reassemble it

My momma swore she would never let herself forget

And that was the day that I promise

I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

I've seen many people broke up and hurt themselves as they try to get back on track and find that person worth loving again.

I am too fragile to have my heart broken like that and perhaps that's why I never try to get into relationships.

Darling

You are the only exception...

Maybe I know somewhere

Deep in my soul that love never lasts

We gotta find other ways

To make it alone

Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keep a comfortable distance

And up until now

I have sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

This verse perfectly describe how I see relationships and love.

I admit that I never believe that love lasts, maybe because I have seen and experience what it's like to see people around me change and I realized that I also change. 

Nothing lasts. Happy moments are only as good as it gets for now but in future, it might be lost and what is left are only memories of what we once have. At the rate that feelings and emotions change, I really am starting to believe more and more that nothing lasts - not friendship and not love. 

It has always made me feel sad that things have to change...and I guess that's why I never took the leap of faith in love. I try to force myself to believe that perhaps being single and alone is ok, I should be contented although there were times of loneliness in which I wished that there were someone.

But then, I'm too worried of getting hurt...

If there's someone out there, I can only hope that I'd take that leap and believe again...someone who's the only exception I guess...

You are the only exception...

Ohhhhh

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't

Let go of what's in front of me here

I know you are leaving in the morning 

When you wake up

Leave me with some kinda proof that it's not a dream...

You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing...

For now, I shall just leave you with this lovely expression of love.

One that touches my heart, especially when Rachel sang it to Finn in the last scene of Episode 2 in Glee.

I wish that one day I could find my only exception.