LOOKING FOR THAT PILLAR

Life is tougher and tougher.

I'm facing challenges that I am struggling to overcome.

I'm trying hard to be positive and learn from the hardship that is overwhelming to me.

Trying to cope with my problem of not being to sleep normally, eat healthily and keep myself living a happier lifestyle. 

Is life supposed to be this way?

Perhaps yes...Perhaps a life full of obstacles is a good one; perhaps if you feel so tense that it's almost unbearable, it is a good thing...

But I'm very tired ...not physically...

I think more like mentally and emotionally...I am tired of pushing myself to go through this.

I guess I'm weak.

And at times like these...

I need a song to push me through, and I found the perfect song on Glee this week.

As I lay me down

Heaven hear me now

I'm lost without a cause

After giving it my all

Winter storms have come

And darkened my sun

After all that I've been through

Who can I turn to?

I look to you

I look to you

After all my strength is gone

In you I can be strong

I look to you

I look to you

And when melodies are gone

In you I hear a song

I look to you

About to lose my breath

There's no more fighting left

Sinking to rise no more

Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken

Left to my regret

And I don't know if I'm going to make it

Nothing to do but lift my head

My levee's have broken

My doors have come crumbling down on me

The rain is falling, defeat is calling

I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle

I need you, shine on me

The song describes exactly how I'm feeling 

And I'm desperately needing someone to tell me that things will be okay again; that I will go through this, because I am seriously losing grip.

I need someone to shine a light and tell me and lead me and let me know that I'm traveling down the direction I want to go...

Right now, I can only pray and do my best.

It will be over soon.

I'll move on.

With Lotsa Love

Tammy