MESSAGE ON HOLDING ON

I was in my car this morning.

LONG TIME since I actually tune in to the radio.
Well, I love country songs and Malaysian radio doesn't really serve that kinda 'dish' except maybe Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood or maybe Shania Twain & Sheryl Crow...occasionally.

Anywayzzzz...
So, I was tuning in to Fly FM's Ben & Phat Fabes, one of my favourite morning shows.
And just when I needed something to boost my low spirit (you know, another day of stress), this song came on...

The first song of the day.
It's just like a message from God.
Just the right song, at the right time. Perfect...

Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On.

This is one of my favourite songs back then.
I remember the first time I heard this song, I was in the cinemas. The beautiful rhythms of "Keep Holding On" penetrates my ears after the movie Eragon. Then I just can't get this track off my playlist - for a while that is, before I got sick of it haha.

Today, Fly FM brought this song back into my life and at one of the times where I needed the support the most.

This song is about holding on, it's about hanging in there during times of adversities, it's about someone singing to you, telling you that they are there.

To me...I know my family is there...my friends are there and God is also there for me.
I am very blessed. Though this is like the hardest time for me. I have to face the consequences of my mistakes and it is not easy. Not everyone understand but I'm glad that there are people who are there.


You're not alone,
Together we stand,
I'll be by your side,
You know I'll take your hand,

When it gets cold, and it feels like the end,
There's no place to go, you know I won't give in.

No I won't give in.

Keep holding on,
'Cause you know we'll make it through, make it through,
Just stay strong,
'Cause you know I'm here for you, here for you
There's nothing you can say,
Nothing you can do,
There's no way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on,
'Cause you know we'll make it through, make it through


Sometimes, at a certain point in life, certain songs just make you tear up.
This morning, this song did.
Oh it's like I'm hearing someone support me.
I guess I'm DRAMATIZING things AGAIN but seriously, you have no idea how sad I was and how low I was for the past month. Finally, I can welcome November with only positive thoughts.


Hear me when I say, when I say I believe,
Nothing's gonna change,
Nothing's gonna change destiny...

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly...
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH~~

Okay..
Perfect for my day. Just the verse I need. Whatever that is meant to be will work out. I'm really hoping and praying desperately for things to work out for me. I mean, I don't want to be as miserable as I am now. Seriously, I am really miserable. I don't know why. I mean, I should be happy and grateful with the things I have but I'm not.

I'm only happy because I choose to like hang out with my friends and get myself geared up. But seriously, how long can I depend on my friends. They have their lives too. At one point in life, I have to stop BUGGING them. I don't know how I can live on, but have to lar...

Well, it's not like my day was great or anything after listening to this song.
I mean, it's ANOTHER day at work. I screw up as usual.
But then, at least it got my spirits higher for like almost 2%.

Plus, I had Farah, a great buddy chat with me and it really did cheer me up today.
So, well, I guess it is considered a great day, if you compare it to the various other days for the past 2 months.

Anyway, chaozzz....
Enjoy the song even though it is OLD~ haha well, kinda old
Brings back memories of Eragon though






Love,
TammyC

I'M JUST LOOKING FOR A PLACE IN THIS WORLD

A PLACE IN THIS WORLD - Taylor Swift

I love how I can always relate to Taylor's songs.
This is one in particular that I am so feeling right now.

I don't know what I want,
So don't ask me,
'Cause I'm still trying to figure it out,
Don't know what's down this road,
I'm just walking,
Trying to see it through the rain coming down...
Even though I'm not the only one who feels,
The way I do.

I am at this part of my life again where I have NO IDEA where I'm heading to or what I'm doing with my life. It's somewhat like a crossroad for me and right now, I'm pretty stuck.




I like this song.
It describes how lost I'm feeling. It describes the feeling of trying to search for something that I want and right now, I really don't know how to get there. I'm really lost.

I'm alone,
On my own,
And I'm starting off,
I'll be strong,
I'll be wrong,
Oh but life goes on...
Oh I'm just a girl,
Trying to find a place in this world.

The lonely road I'm on now BUT...I hope mine is a beautiful road like this one

I am really alone. I guess no matter how I say it, or to whom I say it, I still feel alone in this.
Recently, I made a stupid mistake. I huge mistake. It was figuratively fatal to my future. So ya...I'm trying to be strong. People are laughing behind my back I guess. I'm as humiliated as ever because of my own stupidity and my lack of judgment when letting out words of emotions...
I should have watch my mouth (or rather, the hands that typed those hurtful remarks).

But, I just want everyone to know, that, even though I mean what I said, I was just a foolish girl who can't control that moment of anger. I'm just a normal girl going through life and learning the curves around it. I'm just trying to find myself and what I love in this complicated world.

I really feel alone and lost, especially now that I've stepped into adulthood.
I missed being me, well, at least the me I were 2 to 3 years back. I had great times then. Now, my life is a maze that I'm in. And I hate the mistake that I've made; it makes this whole journey much worst for me.




Got the radio on
My old blue jeans,
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeves,
Feeling lucky today,
Got the sunshine,
Could you tell what more do I need,
And tomorrow's just a mystery...oh yeah,
But that's okay


I always try to think positive. Lately, it is just not working for me anything. I just don't have enough brain cells to churn positive thoughts. Seriously...whenever I start to think that things might start to take a turn, THE WORST possible happen.

Part of me thanks God for everything. I am still grateful for the things I have, the people around me and basically, everything that has happened to me so far were blessings in disguise. This time, I have yet to see the blessing but I'm hanging in there, trying to open my eyes to the wonders that lies ahead of me. I have always been a person who wears her heart on her sleeves, but maybe sometimes, in the real world, that is just not possible.

I will just try to laugh more like I did back then. And just enjoy whatever time I have with the people I love and enjoy hanging out with. I hope the sun will continue to shine on me. I hope and pray that God will continue to watch over me, though I might not be deserving.

I hope one day, I'll find the happiness that I've been searching for.
I hope that I can find a place where I can truly belong and where I'm truly happy - like when I was in TARC & in Liverpool. =D
For now, I'm glad that I have my music & my movies - my best companions~



I feel exactly like how Taylor says she feels about getting to her dream career as an artiste. Well, I don't want to sing like her but I definitely want to write like her.

I hope that one day, I'll achieve my dreams, just like she did.


Love,
TammyC
To great future & beyond~

BOYS LIKE GIRLS GAVE ME & MY EARS ANOTHER GREAT ESCAPE

Okay
I'm sure most of you know Boys Like Girls after their famous hit "The Great Escape".
I remember screaming to that song inside my car....

"Throw it away, forget yesterday, We'll MAKE THE GREAT ESCAPE! We won't hear a word they say, They don't know us anyway"

I mean, seriously, it is REALLY FUN to blast the car stereo & do that. Try it! What better place to sing it than your car, simulating your own great escape, especially after a long tiring or stressful day.

I remember once I was so upset with something & this song just made my day.

So, my sister told me to listen to this new one by Boys Like Girls featuring my favourite Taylor Swift. The title of the song "Two Is Better Than One".

Okay lar, the first time I heard it I wasn't feeling the 'syokness' (excitedness) in me; maybe partly because it is recommended by my 'arch-enemy' a.k.a. my sister. So as usual, the egoistic part of me just think that it is one normal song.

It doesn't help me like the song when my sis keep singing it 24-7 a day...partly out of tune.
But today, I saw someone's Facebook status, "Two is better than One" and I thought, I actually felt like listening to it.

SO straight from the office, I downloaded it....

And now, it's gonna be stuck in my playlist for a while =)

I remember what you wore the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

Some way, somehow, I can't seem to remember what my crushes wore the first time I saw them. But I guess I know the feeling of thinking....hmm...what's this feeling? Could he be it? LOL...usually, he is not haha...

The boys... (who like girls or are somewhat like girls :P)

So maybe it's true,
that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time,
to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one


I guess there will be a time where this special someone arrive in your life and you feel that suddenly, you just fall so head over heels and then other things in your life doesn't seem to make any sense anymore. You give up everything just for him - the things that you want, maybe sometimes, the direction that you think you want to head...
It makes you wonder, who are you and why is this feeling messing me up?

Personally, I've never fallen that crazily in love before. I mean, I've crushed a few times & gone half crazy ...hmm...somehow, I'm pretty set in what I feel I want. Never really felt like I'm coming undone when it comes to relationships and love. Maybe because I haven't really meet that one person yet.

I remember giving up a chance to practically see my crush everyday just because I chose my internship in production rather than another non-production job, in which I'll be situated nearer to him. He will send me to work and back...Well, I gave that up. I didn't regret it. I think again, I'm selfish huh...I always put myself first. So, I guess at this point in life, my career, my dreams are still pretty intact. As for relationships, I really hope that I can meet someone that I'd want to give up everything for (though chances are slim) and a person who is worth me selflessly loving. Okay back to reality...

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes,
the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing


Taylor starts to sing this verse, describing her feelings.
Problems breathing it seems. Lol...
Well of course, you just can't talk properly when you are face-to-face with someone who takes your breathe away. Been there. I like this verse.

The girl

So is Two better than One?
You decide!

The album Are you love drunk? If you are, you'd really like this one

The acoustic version:



The one with Taylor:

















Love,
TammyC
Enjoy!
My great Escape & Of course, 2 is better than one

THE BATTLE BETWEEN CAILLAT & SWIFT

There's no battle really. Both of them are fabulous. Both of them are my favourites.
But I feel that I need to write about both albums.



Most of the time, Taylor and Colbie both writes about love.
However, Taylor's songs carry teenage love-crush themes while Colbie's love songs are more matured.

The hands of love

Personally, I feel that Taylor's lyrics are exceptionally written. All of Taylor's songs are so meaningful and her feelings are aptly orchestrated in the words she use. Maybe because I feel I can relate to more of Taylor's songs. Colbie is good in lyrics too. Colbie's way of writing is deeper, which is cool. For Colbie, I don't feel awed by her lyrical expressions maybe because I cannot relate to her songs yet. Her songs is always about succumbing to love in some ways, like begging a dude to come back to her that sort of thing...it makes you feel vulnerable.

But what captures me about Colbie's new album is the melody of her songs. Most of her songs are so beautiful to the ears. Not to say that Taylor's songs aren't great to the ears though but I think melody wise, I'd have to give it to Colbie.

So basically, Colbie's album is like a HOT HOT guy, who looks amazing physically...well, kind of have a good heart too...

Taylor's album is like a average-looking kinda guy but with GREAT GREAT personality. Someone who you can sing along with and feel.
A lot of guys don't dig Taylor's song, well we all know why. They are never about the lyrics and ALL ABOUT THE MELODY. Oops! Am I generalizing here?

Anyway, for now, I'm in love with Colbie's album but I never get bored of all Taylor's song. I can sing along to Taylor's song anytime, anywhere.

COLBIE CAILLAT'S 'BREAKTHROUGH':

1. I Won't
I think this track serves as an excellent opening to the album.
One of my favourites in the album.

Gist of the song: "I won't give up on my love for you"

2. Begin Again
Absolutely my favourite song on the album (well at least for now). It's fast and fun to sing with.

Gist of the song: "Arguments is not the end of a relationship. Sometimes we hurt in other when we are angry, but maybe we don't mean the things we say. So, let's cool down and start over ;P"

3. You Got Me
Gist of the song: "Just how one dude captured her heart"

4. Falling for You
Colbie's first single from the album Breakthrough. This one is good, if not, we won't be driven to listen to the rest of the album.

Gist of the song: "I'm falling in love with someone and I'm not sure if my feelings for him is true. Do I know him well enough? And I'm wondering if I should tell him to because I don't know if he feels the same way."

5. Rainbow
Gist of the song: "A never ending search for love, no matter how far"

6. Droplets
This is not exactly a new song. Previously, Colbie has performed this track a couple of times with her close friend, Jason Reeves. Not surprising to have this one on the album.

Gist of the song: "Not sure about this one, but I think it's about walking away from a deeply imprinted love."

7. I Never Told You
Another one of my favourites in the album. Love the melody.

Gist of the song: "I never told you how much I love you and how I feel about being with you until I lose you"

8. Fearless
This one I love love love! The monotonous start of the song is great. I'd love to just sit alone, in darkness, on top of the world, looking above the city lights to this track. It makes you feel out of the world.

Gist of the song: "I'm not afraid of you leaving me. Go ahead"

9. Running Around
This is a fun song. Not bad.

Gist of the song: "I ran away from you but now I found that there's no one compared to you"

10. Break through
Gist of the song: "I want to breakthrough to you but the only way that's going to happen is that you will have to let me in"

11. It Stops Today
This is one song with lyrics I can appreciate personally, so I really like it.

Gist of the song: "I'll stop running away from my own problems. I'm taking the challenge to step out of my comfort zone, do something that I am afraid of doing before."

12. Breaking at the Cracks
Gist of the song: "Another song about heart-breaks"

13. What I Wanted to Say
Gist of the song: "Sometimes we are afraid to say the things we want to, for example "I love You" or "Please don't go". So we just hope that the other person know what we wanted to say because it is so hard for us to say the things we really want to say."

14. Out of My Mind
Gist of the song: "I make a wrong decision leaving a dude who loves me a lot and now I realized how much I love him too"

15. Don't Hold Me Down
Gist of the song: "Just don't hold me back from doing the things I wanna do and achieve."

16. Never Let You Go
Gist of the song: "I love you so much that no matter what happens, I will hang on to you, supporting you ;P"

TAYLOR SWIFT'S 'FEARLESS'

1. Fearless
Not exactly one of my favourite song by Taylor but well...

Gist of the song: "It's about the date Taylor never had"

2. Fifteen
Depending on how well you know me, if you know me very well, you'll know that this is one of MY MOST FAVOURITE SONG by Taylor. This is the song that will make me cry almost everytime I hear it. Apparently Taylor also cried when recording this one. I think it is a song that most girls can relate to - highschool and boys and life in general.

Gist of the song: "The challenges in a girls life, especially in highschool."

3. Love Story
Taylor's first single in the album. I was once crazy over it. It is like the song say, a fairy tale love story that all girls dream about, well at least I dream about ;P

Gist of the song: "A Romeo & Juliet love story with a happy ending"

4. Hey Stephen
This is another song I enjoy singing a lot. Taylor dedicates this song to, I believe one of her idol from the band Love and Theft, Stephen Barker Liles. She thinks he's cute and she penned a song for him. Well that's cool! lol

Gist of the song: "Taylor proclaiming her 'love' to Stephen. I believe everyone has their own Stephen who they want to dedicate this song to. For me, hmmm...all the hot dudes I've met before haha"

Stephen in green

5. White Horse
Taylor wrote this one for Joe Jonas who broke her heart. She cried while singing this during the music awards. I mean, no matter how dramatic you call her, I think she's just a vulnerable and insecured teen.

Gist of the song: "I'm moving on, you cheater! I'll find someone right for me someday and it's not you"

6. You Belong With Me
Another track I love from the album. The video is cool too, I mean, it won the Best Female Video award before Kanye did the stupid stunt to embarrass Taylor. But seriously, I understand why her video won. I mean, I thought it was a great video...Don't you?

Gist of the song: "Why can't you see that I am the one for you? Why do you even date a B****?"

7. Tell Me Why
Gist of the song: "Just mad with a guy who hurt her bad"

8. You're Not Sorry
This is one song I love but I don't have in my song list. Don't know why. Will get it in soon.

Gist of the song: "She is not believing the guy anymore. Though he said he is sorry, she know better. She is leaving because she doesn't want to hurt anymore"

9. The Way I Loved You
Gist of the song: "It's about a relationship and I think it's also about a fight with your boyfriend because you love each other too much?"

10. Forever & Always
Dedicated to Joe Jonas. No comment but I never really liked Joe even before he start dating Taylor. So, whatever.

Gist of the song: "You just never kept your promise about forever and always"

11. The Best Day
Another beautifully written song by Taylor. Love the lyrics to this one.

Gist of the song: "It's about how great your father is"

12. Change
I didn't know this until a few days back. This song is actually for the US sports team. So it's like an inspiration song to motivate them to never give up and you know, lift the spirits of sportsmanship.

Gist of the song: "Never give up. We'll win someday if we keep on fighting because things are constantly changing. On some days we might lose, but on others, we could be champions"

13. Crazier
Another absolute favourite that I'm crazy over. Ask my flatmates in UK and you'll know. This song has been repeating for hours in my room non-stop.

Gist of the song: "Just crazy in love over someone"


As you are probably now aware of, BOTH of them are fabulous. It's hard to choose. And the best is always to combine both of them...


So now, let me bring you "BREATHE" by Taylor Swift featuring Colbie Caillat.

I mean how can this piece suck? The first time the melody sweeps through my ear loops, I fell in love with it. It is about a relationship that has to end, because it has to. Well, I am not feeling the lyrics but I sure love the song. Enjoy.



Love,
TammyC

BUTTERFLY FLYING AWAY

BUTTERFLY FLY AWAY by Miley Cyrus

Though I love country music, I am not a Miley Cyrus fan. I've mentioned before I don't get the Hannah Montana hype but let's not get into that. But I have to admit, there are a few songs by Miley that I actually like. One of them is the latest "Butterfly Fly Away" from the movie Hannah Montana.

I really love the song's melody and the fact that the song is about her dad.
Country girls are always daddy's girl. I guess I am in some ways a daddy's and mummy's girl. I can be with both of them and chat about stuff.

Miley & Billy Ray Cyrus

My dad is a bit reserved and conservative but once we get with the flow, he can really talk a lot. He is one of the wisest man ever and though he preach a lot, sometimes, I don't really mind listening to the things he say over and over. Of course there are times I wished that he would save it. Haha but my dad is a great man.
You tucked me in, Turned out the lights, Keep me safe and sound at night, Little girls depend on things like that

I remember when I was small, after watching any scary movies, me and my sis would have problems sleeping at night. So what we would do is run next door to my dad's room and sleep next time him first...See, we would always feel safer with our dad next to us...Don't know why.

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone,
Make a living, make a home,
Must have been as hard as it could be

Well my mum does all my brushing and combing of hair, but my dad and grandpa does drive me everywhere and ALL OF THEM WERE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I LOOKED BACK. So, they really are the people I love a lot a lot because their sacrifice (not just driving me everywhere) is priceless. I guess everything that they've done for me are hard and difficult and I always worry if I could have done the same for my own offsprings. Honestly, I still am doubting it. So, my parents and grandparents are really great!

And when I couldn't sleep at night,
Scared things wouldn't turn out right,
You'd hold my hand and sing to me....

Well my parents don't really sing to me at night but I'll always remember the times where we sing in the car to songs like "Tiny Bubbles", "Que Sera Sera" and "Who stole the cookie from the cookie pot?". Our Sundays used to be family day out and sometimes we sing songs in cars. It was really fun.

Caterpillar in the tree,
How you wonder who you'll be,
Can't go far but you can always dream,
Wish you may and wish you might,
Don't you worry hold on tight,
I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly Fly Away
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
Flap your wing now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
We been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do
Butterfly, Butterfly, Butterfly,
Butterfly Fly Away (Butterfly Fly Away)

The chorus sings about how a dad wish that his daughter or son would go far in life...
I mean everyone of us has to learn how to be independent one day and fly away from the safe cocoon in the form of our parents. And of course parents would want us to go as far as we can and make all our dreams come true.


I think it is really a beautiful track that anyone would enjoy.

My dad & my mum

Love,
TammyC

LOVE ME FOR ALL THAT I AM

If you are my age, you'd probably remember a group call A*Teens.
Okay call me lame but I was once a huge fan okay. I mean, they are okay. I still enjoy some of their music no matter what some might say.

So, I was going through my old playlist and suddenly I remember this song.

"For All That I Am" by A*Teens

(From left) Amit, Marie, Sara & Dhani makes A*Teens

Suddenly, I feel that I can relate to this song even though I'm not in a relationship.
I guess this song applies to my feelings towards my friends and family members sometimes.

I'm sorry, made you feel sorry

Last night, I came home too late
And you were there waiting
I know, it's easy to call
I guess I wasn't thinking of you
It's not that I don't care
You should know me better by now...

CHORUS
I am sorry if I made you lonely and sad
I am sorry if I made you feel bad
What I'm trying to say
I'm not always that way
So love me for all that I am

I know (I know)
I often forget
To say that I love You (that I love you)
And Yes (And Yes)
I truly regret
The times that I might have hurt you that way
It's not that I don't care
You should know me better by now

You know sometimes I am so forgetful and so engaged with stuff that I neglect some friends or some of my family members. I neglect the ones I really love. I guess deep in my heart I truly care for them, it's just that sometimes, I might get a bit carried away. Then when I think back of how I've neglected them, I feel so so bad but I never really would go to them and tell them how much I actually cared. So, I guess this song aptly describe my feelings...I just hope that people accept me for who I am, even though I'm such a screw up sometimes.

True, I may defend the things I do
Though I know deep down I'm am wrong
But when the heat comes done it's you
That keeps me going on

This most aptly describes me personally. Because of my irritable egoistic nature, I always am defensive. I know! I hate that too but I can't seem to control myself for wanting to be RIGHT ALL THE TIME! And after saying the things I say, sometimes I truly regret it. I wish that I wasn't that defensive at the moment because I know in some ways, it make me look like such a b**** and I hurt others at times without knowing it. And, it's so sad that I hurt the ones I actually love. When I love someone, sometimes I guess I become even more critical about them and that kind of pushes them away from me. I guess like the lyrics go, at the end of the day, it is actually them that makes my day and make me who I am. They are the ones I care about but they are also the ones I might have hurt the most.

So at the end of the day, I really hope that people love me for who I am as a person, even with all my weaknesses (believe me, LOADS OF THEM) because I love them all...

Now don't be judgmental but A*Teens songs are pretty good. This is only one song that brings back memories. There are a few other great tracks that I'd share maybe some other time.

CHECK THIS SONG OUT:

Remember, I love all of you
Please love me too

Love,
TammyC