WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO GET OLDER

The Chinese New Year is just around the corner and the tiger chasing out the ox signifies the greeting of a new year in the Chinese calendar. Unfortunately, the only obvious thing that one can deduce from a start of a new year is that we're getting OLDER. But every new year for me also brings chimes of reminders from the people around me; with many people telling me to mature, grow up (not physically because I'm already stunted) and stop being naive. I find it funny because it's a phase I'm going through. I'm maturing as I make all my stupid, idiotic mistakes.

They advise me to be wiser as I'm stepping into the corporate society, a world where nothing is that straightforward. Believe me, I tried but I'm sorry I'm slow and stupid. I really am. But I am trying to learn to be smarter and not making the same mistakes twice. Maybe I just need time to make sense of things...I might be slow but I could and will catch-up sooner or later (I hope).

I've completely forgotten about this song but hearing it again makes me realized the true meaning of this song because now I can relate to it better. Derived from Colbie Caillat's debut album, "Older" is the perfect song to describe my current transition in life.

The stunningly gorgeous Colbie Caillat's has a more mature style-of-writing that delves deeper in words

Colbie Caillat's song "Older" aptly illustrates my feeling about getting OLDER!! ARGH!!

Plus it has such a beautiful melody to it. 

Waited all my life for this day to come
I feel like letting go, life goes on
Wasting no more time
So much to be done
Everything works out
So they say
Over my shoulder, it's tough getting older
Yeah, yeah.......

(Chorus)
Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of grey and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older 

In just a few sentences, the chorus has practically captured everything that has been  bugging my mind after I graduated from LJMU as a student and stepped into the threshold of adulthood.

As we grow, nothing seems straightforward. Nothing can be 100% right or 100% wrong. The lines are so blurred that sometimes you doubt if you had made the right choices or right decisions. If in primary school, we learn that lying is downright wrong, the world of adulthood makes you question if lying is actually wrong. I believe that there are circumstances in which lying is justifiable, but when is a lie justifiable? How do you distinct good and bad when sometimes, you need to play dirty for survival. It's a dog eat dog world out there they say (and I still haven't experience that yet, I don't know if it's a good thing). That's when you have to weigh and you keep thinking and thinking about it...that's when you feel that your shoulders are burdened with these dilemmas of life - with decisions. 

"I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go, Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder"
I feel that I always knew my directions until I get here, it seems like I just can't find my way anymore. I'm still groping and hopefully I will see the light soon. One thing I've learned is that I can't take a shortcut and want things fast. I think I still need to work on patience. Some people reach their destinations sooner but I guess I'm not one of them lucky ones and so, I'll have to learn to bear with it =). But still it's all part of the progress of growing and getting older, ain't it? 

Here before my eyes, many roads ahead
Time for me to choose one way now
If I take a chance
What lies down the road
Feeling so confused, turned round
On and on, on and on
yeah yeah..... 

Aging also means dealing with more decisions and challenges. It's about which road you take and where it will lead you to. That's again something that is bothering me and thinking about all these issues just make my brain circuits all jammed up. It's like you'll sometimes be wondering that if you did things the other way, what would the outcome be. Of course there are moments when you feel that you've made the best decisions out of the circumstance and you wouldn't have done things differently but there are also times when you just don't know, leaving yourself baffled with uncertainties of what are the true definitions of right and wrong decisions.

I've made some stupid career decisions very recently. Many argue that it is wrong...I guess somehow it is wrong but it felt so right that I have no regrets at all. I'm happier now and I'm ready for a new adventure. I know I won't get to my dreams any sooner but who knows right? God has always got a pathway paved. 

So well let's enjoy "Older" while we ponder upon life.

 

With Lotsa Lurve,

 That was then....

This is now...

TammYC will be getting her "mojo" back again!

DREAM BEFORE YOU REACH YOUR DREAMS

Nicole Johnson is a 14-year-old that is probably unheard of.

To me, all she need is a big break, someone to give her a chance to shine and do some good music.

She has recorded 2 songs, again, probably unheard of but both songs are beautiful songs that I feel need to be credited.

This one I'm introducing is especially meaningful and I wonder why it isn't as popular as I hope it would be. Perhaps lack of deserved publicity?

It's a country song and thus it won't really get much coverage in the local scene. In Malaysia, only huge country stars like Taylor Swift and Carrie Underwood and maybe Shania Twain get some attention. Others are mostly shoved off. In fact, much to my dismay, the local radio stations blends the country sounds with the echoes of commercialized pop-rock (for example, Taylor's "Teardrops on my Guitar" and "Love Story"). I mean, come on!! You're destroying the melodies I actually love and replacing it with noise. No offense, but if you want pop-rock, play Simple Plan or something.

Dream by Nicole Johnson

This song is about standing up when you fall.

It's about trying and not giving up.

It's about reaching for the stars.

It's about the courage to fail and learn.

It's about staying strong and hanging in there.

And most of all, it's about being able to dream because you can do anything if you're not afraid to dream...Only dreams can take us beyond our limitations and if we leap, we might just be able to reach it.

Little girl in the backyard tree says
I can fly mom, look at me
and the takes a leap
'cause she believes
A second later she's on the ground
With two skinned knees and a teary frown

And she wipes her eyes

And says,

I guess that I'm not wonder woman after all
'cause she'd never falls
And her mama says
Fly...

Face into the wind
Feel...

The sun against your skin
Rise above the mountains that get in your way
Be careful but be brave
You can do anything
if you're not afraid to dream!

A young woman stays on the stage
Of Juilliard school of ballet
And she's got the chance, to finally dance
With butterflies and quicken breath

She's confident and not scared of death
Soon she strainghtens her wings
Closes her eyes and takes down deep inside herself
And she tells herself

Just remember to
Fly...

Face into the wind
Feel...

The sun against your skin
Rise above the mountains that get in your way
Be careful but be brave
You can do anything
If you're not afraid to dream

A new mother starts to cry

Cause' the doctor say the baby's weigh too small,

She'll need a miracle

To get through it all...

And her mama prays
Fly...

Face into the wind
Feel...

The sun against your skin
Rise above the mountains that get in your way
Be careful but be brave
You can do anything
If you're not afraid to dream!

Little girl in the backyard tree says
I can fly mom, look at me!

This is one inspirational song that you can share with a friend or someone that is going through a tough patch in life.

Enjoy~

With Lotsa Lurve,

TammyC at home trying to enjoy some music...

YOU DECIDE HOW FAR

If you don't help yourself, no one else can.

Friends and the people around you can only do so much but it is you who determine where you will go, or where you are heading to. 

This is another meaningful song by Martina McBride. 

One the surface, she sings about how she is out there for the one she loves but that person wouldn't let her in. She wants to make a relationship work; and by that, it means opening up and communicating with each other. You know how it is, for a relationship to work, both parties have to be open and talk to each other. And when one shuts themselves, it will be hard. So basically I guess McBride is singing about how she's trying to hang on to a relationship, trying to make it work but her partner just isn't giving the necessary support because he is closing in to only himself.

There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh never come back

There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh when's it gonna end

[Chorus:]
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be

[Chorus]

Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
YeahI'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far 

But I would also argue that it's a song about you, yourself, standing up again because sometimes, when you feel so let down or disappointed, you lose the will to fight back and move on in life.

Your loved ones are always there for you, but they can only go so far as to help you because ultimately, it is only us who can bring ourselves back. Your family and friends are there to help you hang in there but if you just won't let them in, you are slowing shoving them away from your life.  

It's just another great track that I think country music fans would enjoy haha.

Martina McBride is really a great singer you know. One of my favourites.

CLICK HERE for the real video.

With Lotsa Lurve,

TammyC trying to go far...

DO YOU WANT TO CRY ON MY SHOULDER?? - SORRY BUT IT'S RESERVED FOR V.I.P. ONLY =P

Since the Idol pandemic strikes again, I thought it would be apt for me to write about a particular Idol song which I happen to like haha. And this is no ordinary Idol song.

Now I'm pretty sure you  guys all know that the 'Idol' format is adopted in many different parts of the globe. This song I'm introducing is actually sung by the contestants on Deutschland Sucht den Superstar, which is a German singing competition based on the Idol format - something like "German Idol" in German haha. 

Anyway it is a really nice pop song - very commercialized sound but yes, I like it haha.

There are some really sweet memories etched within the melody of this song actually. Two years ago, one of my college friend introduced this song to my close friend and she fell in love with it. When I hear it, I knew why. YY is always fond of romantic songs and this one is a really nice one indeed. 

A whole bunch of us at that time were assignment mates (around 4 to 5 of us) and we shared this track among ourselves and it somehow became our song in some ways. We loved it so much that we inserted it into our short film for our final project. And at that time, it was kinda also like the romantic song for YY and all the guys who liked her (long story). 

Anyway, then after our final project, me and me classmates went for a Penang trip and I made sure that this song is on my playlist, since my gang is traveling with me in my car, I thought this would be the ultimate track to sing along. This was one of the songs that was repeating on my car's stereo when we were in Penang, thus, this song teleports me back to those great moments I had with my college buddies...Sigh...and that was swiftly 2 years ago. Time really flies.

(My Kenari plays a huge part in this road trip ;P) 

 

 

 These are memories that I shall cherish forever...

Though I can't apply the lyrics to a man I love, I can definitely mean it to my wonderful friends

Okay, apparently I haven't really mention the song title ya.

"Cry on my Shoulder" - DSDS

It's another lame love song but it's really nice okay. I mean, come on...we need to get a little lovey-dovey sometimes ya and this track is great for you to sing or dance along with your Valentine =). 

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

Chorus:

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide
 

Repeat chorus
 

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

With Lotsa Lurve,

TammyC hoping for more happy memories to come =) ~

SHE MISSES HIM

I am pretty certain that not many would have come across this song because it is a low profile country song. But it is a brilliant, brilliant song that I love so so much.

It reminds me a lot about my grandfather, whom I dearly love. The lyrics describe my grandmother and my grandfather, especially during the period when my grandfather was very ill. My grandpa suffered from stroke a couple of times and had Alzheimer due to old age and the last few years of his life, he was somewhat blurred with stuff that is going on. I don't really know what is on his mind then, but I just wish I knew. The last few months before his passing away, he was stricken with blood cancer and all I knew is that he still had to suffer during those last few months of his life.

And this song I think just describes how all of us feel about this man, whom I call my grandfather, my father's dad...

Tim Rushlow - She Misses Him

She shaves his face
She combs his hair
She helps him find his rocking chair
She cooks his meals
She wipes his mouth
And the window that he's looking out
She reads him books
She speaks his name
Oh every day is much the same
She sighs that sigh from deep within
The one that says
She misses him

She misses his gentle touch
And the way he used to make her laugh
She misses the man he was
In all of those old photographs
So strong, so kind, so sweet, so smart
The man who stole her very heart
She misses him

My grandpa was a really kind and responsible man. I've heard my parents talked about how great and nice my grandpa was, how he sacrifice and worked hard to raise his children and provide for his family. I think in many ways my dad had inherited this quality from my grandpa. Grandma told us that they were poor but very very happy at that time. I think as much as I want to say I know how that feels, I don't think I know. I mean, I'm happy now but I never really been in extreme poverty where I had to starve or anything and I think in many ways, I've never had to feel how it's like to have nothing and everything. But then again, I'm not super rich so I do know how to feel contented. 

Anyway the first verse of the song has given a similar picture of how my grandma spent her time with my grandpa for the past few years before his death. My grandma cooks for him, well basically attending to his every needs.

The chorus basically reminds me of who my grandpa is and will always be to me and I believe, to all of us who had loved him so dearly.

His children come on Saturday
Their at his feet
His grandkids play
It's sad they don't know him at all
He's just the one they call grandpa
They take out his trash
They mow his lawn
Things he can't do since he's been gone
She's grateful that they're pitching in
And like everyone
She misses him

My siblings and I are probably the closest to our grandpa since when we were young, we see grandpa everyday (he used to help out with our family laundry business). He drove us to school and all. I can say, that was perhaps the best days of our lives...we were young, we were happy...all I had to think about is school and how to not do homework...grandpa was there with us. He loves us and buys us stuffs and toys and takes us places. Those were really the good old days. It seems really surreal to me now that those are just childhood memories that I'll never relive. As much as I love being a young adult, I guess I kinda hate the responsibilities that come with being an adult (who doesn't?) and I so wish that I could just go back to those days where I can hang out with grandpa.

One of two of my cousins however didn't really got the chance to know my grandpa like we do. Mainly because they were still very young. I guess  some of them will just remember grandpa as he is in the hospital...For us older ones, we'll remember him as a great grandpa...a man who I love so dearly. For my father and aunts, they'll see grandpa as a great father and for my grandmother, a man she had loved all her life. But whatever it is, my grandpa is a great man. Is...because he still is, wherever he is now.

She misses his gentle touch
And the way he used to make her laugh
She misses the man he was
In all of those old photographs
So strong, so kind, so sweet, so smart
The man who stole her very heart
She misses him

And yes they're still together
After all these years
But sometimes you can almost feel
The sadness in her tears

She misses his gentle touch
And the way he used to make her laugh
She misses the man he was
In all of those old photographs
So strong, so kind, so sweet, so smart
The man who stole her very heart
She misses him

It still seems like it's just yesterday my grandpa left us because he is still so firmly in my memory. I still constantly think about him. I even had a couple of dreams about him.

I suddenly thought about him and also this song because come March will be the "Qing Bing" festival (a Chinese festival where we sort of like pray for the dead or something) and my mum was telling me about visiting grandpa and all.

If you miss your grandpa just like I do, you'll definitely love this song even more because you'll be able to feel the song personally. But if you still have your grandpa or in fact, anyone you love dearly, treasure them....

So here's me presenting to you Tim Rushlow and his touching song.

(There isn't even a video of it on Youtube, except this cover. But well, this is not a bad version - though he did miss some notes. For the original video, which I think you should watch because it is super touching, visit http://www.spike.com/video/she-misses-him-tim/2790288)

Grandpa sings too you know

Here's my grandpa saying hi

With LotSa Lurve,

TammyC

We miss him

WHAT IF GOD IS ONE OF US?

"What if God was one of us?

Have you ever ask this question? I guess I've never really ask the question until I heard a song recommended to me by a friend ages ago...I think could be 3 years back.

(What if God was) One of Us by Joan Osborne

It used to be one of my favourite songs on my playlist but after awhile, it somehow got kicked out of the list. But yesterday, while watching the latest season of American Idol, a contestant actually brought back the memories of this song and boy, the contestant actually did an even better interpretation of the song. His name is Jermaine Sellers. His rendition was beautiful and suddenly, I thought of this song...and now I'm reliving it... I guess not just the song but also the memory of how I got to know this friend who shared this tune with me. We barely knew each other last time when we first talked about music and now, he's kinda like part of the gang.

Anyway, on the surface, this is a beautiful song that is written about the question, "what if God is actually one of us?" Like I said, I never wonder myself. In some ways, I don't doubt the existence of God but I never really thought about what I'll ask or say if God is actually one of us.

If God had a name what would it be?
And would you call it to his face?
If you were faced with him
In all his glory
What would you ask if you had just one question?

*And yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah-yeah

CHORUS:
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home

But I guess if we delve deeper within the chorus, I'd interpret the lyrics a bit differently too. I guess it is just reminding us that perhaps that someone we look up to (here using 'God' metaphorically) is actually a normal human like us too. So, there's no need really to feel insecure or not good enough.

Besides I think the song is also about flaws, that everyone has flaws. I believe in Christianity, one is not allowed to say that God has flaws (I'm not Christian though so I'm on the fence on this), but, but, what if our God or Gods have their flaws, just like us? It'll be interesting too.

Different people have different interpretation of their own God. I mean, in Islam, Allah (can I use this word?) is God. In Buddhism and Taoism, we have multiple Chinese Gods haha (for example, I always picture the God Er Lang as the hot dude...ahem excuse my fascination with hot Gods) and then we also have the God of Prosperity, Sun WuKong (the Monkey God??) etc. etc.

So what I'm saying is, who we define God is so different, depending on our beliefs. I mean, for all that I know, one could think that their mother is God for so capable in life, for example.

Okay, in summary, I'm saying that again, God is who we define as our God and sometimes  it could also metaphorically be someone that we respect and have a great admiration for because of his/her abilities.

Therefore, I'm saying that this song subtly suggests that, you know, everyone has problems, has their weaknesses, flaws, good and bad...ups and downs, perhaps even God.

This pic was taken to present the meaning of what if God is one of them strangers...

If God had a face what would it look like?
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that
You would have to believe
in things like heaven and in Jesus and the saints
and all the prophets (*)

Second verse is interesting...

I think the words highlights that sometimes, faith in God is not really something visible.

Some people don't believe in God I guess because they don't see it, so perhaps if God had a face, we would believe. In the end, I'll interpret the lines as, you see God as you wish to see Him. And once you choose to see or feel, you are believing.

Personally, I choose to believe that God is greater and mightier than us but I do believe that being God is not easy. That is why, you know, in other words, God could be like one of us, though He might face different challenges.

Trying to make his way home
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
'cept for the Pope maybe in Rome(*)

Just trying to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to heaven all alone
Just trying to make his way home
Nobody calling on the phone
'cept for the Pope maybe in Rome

It's a brilliant song. I don't know if you agree with my personal interpretation of the song but whatever it is, I think this song is somehow really meaningfully written...

Enjoy.

I've 3 renditions here man!

Choose the best, but seriously, I kinda love them all....

Nothing can compare to the original itself for sure. This is Joan Osborne singing "One of Us".
Simple video, capturing just normal people and the 'what if God is one of us' theme basically.

Digby sounded good here, though she's just singing the song. But I like her accompanying her vocals with the piano. She no doubt has a beautiful voice that harmonizes the piano playing. It is definitely something different from the "folk-rock" kinda style employed in the original song by Joan Osborne herself.

With such a melodic voice & smooth R&B version, how can he not be through to the next round? Even Simon was impressed.

I could make this my RINGTONE man!~ 

It IS that AWESOME!

I agree when Kara said "Jermaine, I LOVE YOU!" Best voice so far...well, I think most memorable would be the word...

With Lotsa Lurve,

TammyC off to more Criminal Minds - Season 3 already!!!

HOW CAN I NOT SEE IT'S YOU, LEONA

The new Jake Sully opened his big eyes yellow eyes, signifying his new birth, in his new body.

Then the we travel across Pandora...

With a beautiful song as accompaniment.

I love the mood that they song adds into the picture...

It made feel calm as the song kinda lifted me up (though not physically lar), as if I'm flying along the serene landscapes featured on the big screen.

Then *puff*... just have to wake up

 

If you have NOOOOOOOO idea what I'm talking about among that whole load of crap....so sorry. Actually I was talking about the song that was featured at the end of Avatar; the one that accompanied the rolling credits.

I promised myself to look for that song once I'm out of the cinema. But two weeks after that I still haven't make the effort to search for the song. But but but...the other day at my cousin's house while watching MTV, this song just introduces itself to me muahaha.

I was like "OMG! It's Leona Lewis!"...

I think I was meaning to say "OMG! It's Leona Lewis who sang the song from Avatar. Wicked~ (British expression for super kewl!)". God, how can I not know. With that beautiful voice. My cousin said she thought it was Celine Dion who sang the song. But I think Celine Dion has a more distinctive voice which I can recognize so I know it's not Celine.

Anyway I think it's brilliant to get Leona Lewis to sing Avatar's theme song. It makes perfect sense. She is like one of the biggest star with an amazing voice...following the footsteps of great artistes like Celine and Whitney but she's like the new modern edition...perfectly capturing what Avatar is for James Cameron - a modern movie of what would be a classic like Titanic. James Cameron is just brilliant. He not only makes movie but ensures that the songs for his movie stands out, just like "My Heart Will Go On".

Leona Lewis's song is "I See You".

I love this song. It's mainly above love and this song brilliantly encapsulates the love between Jake and Neytiri in the movie Avatar into its melodic lines.

It's about how you learn more about yourself, through the person you love - just like how Jake learned more about life, more about himself through Neytiri.

The people who loves you are the ones who would point out your faults and tell you how great you are. That's why "I See Me, through your eyes"

 

I see you
I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see

All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more

Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

With Lotsa Love,

TammyC "I See You" from home

"DOWN" WITH THE HITS OF '09

It's 13th January and I still haven't come out with a list of my top songs for 2009.

But it is difficult because when it comes to music, I don't necessarily rock out to the top songs of the latest pop charts. My music taste varies and sometimes I could be ringing my eardrums with tracks from the 80s' or boybands from the 90s' or maybe some unknown country songs that I somehow heard on YouTube.

So it is really hard for me to do decide my 2009 songs because some of the songs I love listening to in 2009 aren't really 2009 songs itself, since they were not produced in 2009.

However, there is this super cool DJ who has successfully made a hot track out of 2009's  top 25 pop songs. I thought I really have to share this one but I guess you guys probably heard it on the radio or on Facebook already since the video has been circulating.

And the best part about this song is that it basically captured all my favourite songs of 2009 into one track. Save me the trouble.

 

Sorry missed out Miley Cyrus & Colby O'Donis

A story to share regarding my encountering this song.

I was on Facebook as usual (I hate to admit it but YES I'm a Facebook addict lar) scrolling on some of my friend's status updates bla bla bla and I saw this video posted by one of my friends - Top 25 Pop Songs of 2009 Remix by DJ Earworm.  Watched it and boy, I was SUPER IMPRESSED with the song! Call me sis to watch the video and listen to the song because I know she likes remixes... and she said, well if without the video the song won't work. So I believe she's saying "it's not that great". I'm like "Hello? What???"

Nevermind I don't need her approval of the song because the next thing I know, the song is blasting on radio stations like Hitz.fm and FlyFM already. *applause* applause* I'll take it that people with great music taste (ahem, yours truly being one of them) knows an excellent hit when they hear one. Naturally, I bragged about it to me sis *wink*. She still doesn't want to accept how great it is. Oh well...

Back to the song then. DJ Earworm practically made a whole new song with the top 25 hits of 2009. Amazing work. Everything sounds perfect...there is a chorus, there is a bridge leading to the chorus and the music all blends in perfectly. If I had to give this hot track a title, I think I'll call it "Gettin' Down with 2009" with Awesome as its middle name.

Check this out and tell me what you think =)

The ingredients that are all mashed up into making this smashing hit:

The Black Eyed Peas - BOOM BOOM POW
Lady Gaga - POKER FACE
Lady Gaga Featuring Colby O'Donis - JUST DANCE
The Black Eyed Peas - I GOTTA FEELING
Taylor Swift - LOVE STORY
Flo Rida - RIGHT ROUND
Jason Mraz - I'M YOURS
Beyonce - SINGLE LADIES (PUT A RING ON IT)
Kanye West - HEARTLESS
The All-American Rejects - GIVES YOU HELL
Taylor Swift - YOU BELONG WITH ME
T.I. Featuring Justin Timberlake - DEAD AND GONE
The Fray - YOU FOUND ME
Kings Of Leon - USE SOMEBODY
Keri Hilson Featuring Kanye West & Ne-Yo - KNOCK YOU DOWN
Jamie Foxx Featuring T-Pain - BLAME IT
Pitbull - I KNOW YOU WANT ME (CALLE OCHO)
T.I. Featuring Rihanna - LIVE YOUR LIFE
Soulja Boy Tell 'em Featuring Sammie - KISS ME THRU THE PHONE
Jay Sean Featuring Lil Wayne - DOWN
Miley Cyrus - THE CLIMB
Drake - BEST I EVER HAD
Kelly Clarkson - MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT YOU
Beyonce - HALO
Katy Perry - HOT N COLD

With Lotsa Lurve,

TammyC signing off from home

ps: Super loving this track. It's call the United States of Pop 2009 btw.

OUR TEMPORARY HOME

This is a song that will touch anyone's heart.

Even if you don't like the singer, you cannot deny how good this song is.

This song is by Carrie Underwood.

It's a song about hope. A song that helps you look forward to better days.

It's a song that makes me super emotional almost everytime I listen to it, especially when I'm driving in my car, on the way home.

Imagine how strong the lyrics are.

It reaches right into your heart. Every single word translates emotion in my heart and my mind. 

Little boy 6 years old,

A little to use to being alone,

Another new mum & dad,

Another school,

Another house that would never be home...

Well people ask him how he likes this place,

He looks up and say,

With a smile upon his face...

This is my temporary home,

It's not where I belong,

The windows & rooms,

That I'm passing through,

This is just a stop,

On the way to where I'm going

I'm not afraid because I know,

This is my temporary home.

Have you ever felt like you don't belong...
It's like everything you do or say there feels so wrong.

Young mum on her own,

She needs a little help, got no where to go,

She's looking for a job,

Looking for a way out,

'Cause a halfway house will never be a home,

At night she whispers to her baby girl,

Someday we'll find a place here in this world

I'm kinda in this situation. I'm looking for a job - I'm looking for a life. I feel so useless lately that I can't even describe it. I feel like I'm chasing something non-existing - that is to love my job. Is it so hard to do something you love? Am I wrong? But I guess my situation is not as bad as a desperate mum seeking for a job to support her kid. That's even worst. I guess at the end of the day, I still need to count my blessings and stop my frigging complaints ya. 

Old man. hospital bed,

The room is filled with people he loved,

And he whispers don't cry for me,

I'll see you all someday,

He looks up and said,

I can see God's face...

This verse gets me crying almost all the time. It's a part that reminds me of my grandfather and how I didn't even get to say my last goodbye to him. He's a nice man, whom I believe deserves a better death - and not die at age 83 after having all those needles bruises him due to his cancer treatments. The worst part is, none of us were there to say goodbye and tell him how much we love him.

My grandfather. grandmother and me.

I miss him and I'd like to see him again someday.

But this song reminds us that this is just a temporary place. Our sorrows, our happiness and our lives are just temporary. Sometimes, I wonder why we lived...sigh. I never wonder about that. I always believed in enjoying life and all but lately, I just don't know what I'm living for anymore. Things have been so low for me that I don't see true happiness anymore. I sincerely hope it is TEMPORARY. That's why this song inspire me.

I guess in many ways I've lost faith and that's why I'm so down. I don't know what to believe and think anymore. I doubt whether I should or should not pursue my dream career or should just settle with just another job. I guess it's better than doing nothing.
Nevermind. I know I'm a bore, always talking about my own problems and neglecting others.

But this is a real good song that inspires people. Especially when you are feeling down, remember that things are always changing and not lasting. We'll soon find better days to be happy about. Currently...that's what pull me through.

Lotsa Lurve,
TammyC signing off from home.
Still waiting for that call that would change my life.

I GUESS I'LL JUST DO IT ANYWAY

You can spend your whole life building,

Something from nothing,

One storm can come and blow it all away,

Build it anyway.

I've been thinking A LOT A LOT THESE DAYS.

Usually, when you have nothing to do, you think about life, and usually, when you have nothing to do, you feel lost and you feel like you have no directions and you feel demotivated. That's exactly how I'm feeling. Suddenly I feel so darn useless. I feel lazy to start because I feel it doesn't get me anywhere, anyway. I've been facing failures and failures over and over again. I feel that the more I wish and hope for something, the higher I fall. THAT'S WHY I NEVER BELIEVE IN POSITIVE ATTRACTION.

It is really somewhat total crap. I do not attract the positive. The more I wish for something to happen and try to think positive about it, the more I feel let that. That's the truth! I'm getting sick of it. Life is best when you expect nothing. Sometimes, maybe it's better to just float and just let things happen as it happens. Putting in hopes just crushes you a million billion gazillion times.

But this song by Martina McBride is somewhat nice because it tells us to do things ANYWAY.

I think yes...do things ANYWAY without any expectations. Be let down but I guess I have to do things ANYWAY.

 

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

I've finally decided that I'll continue dreaming but maybe I don't wanna chase after my dream job anymore. I'm too tired of being idealistic. I guess right now, I'll just get a job and move on with life. I don't want to do what I love anymore....maybe I don't have to anymore because currently, I'm feeling so low, insecure, demotivated, useless that I don't even know what I want anymore. It's true I guess. I know it might not come my way, my dream, but it's still a dream...

I suddenly feel like I'm chasing nothing...if it won't happen, it won't happen.

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

I prayed a lot recently. I mean, usually I pray but recently, I prayed a lot more mainly because I wanted something. I feel bad, as though I only pray to God when I need a favour. I know I know...and sometimes, when I don't get the things I want, I'm angry...sad...disappointed. I try hard not to blame God because I realized that God has always been nice to me. Every single thing that happened to has turned out to be, well, in the end, mostly positive. I guess I continue to believe so...but sometimes, I can't help but doubt it.

But like I say, I love this song. At least it boost up a little spirit...

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

There are times in my life, I wish I won't be so alone. I wish I could have a guy, whom I can love with all my heart. But there are moments in my life, that I dread the thought of that person walking away, I am worried that I can't bear the pain and the hurt. I still can't successfully benefit from this verse but I guess we should always love others with all our hearts and not expect anything derived from the love...

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yea - I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway
Yeah, yeah!

I sing
I dream
I love anyway

Martina McBride sings some of the most beautiful and inspiring country songs, that's why I just love some of her songs. She usually writes about gratitude, about God, about being contented and happy with her life...these are values that I always try to hold on too...

Check this out:

With Lotsa Lurve,
TammyC signing off from home 
ps: what a way to start a new year! JUST DO IT!!!!!!! I should now start robbing muahaha